Ohhh the Sweet Spirit

So Conference weekend was amazing!! I look forward to it every 6 months and always end on such a spiritual high. the talks were phenomenal, as always, and it's remarkable how you can always apply the talks to your individual life. Conference is beautiful, and left me with an even bigger "umph" to want to gain moooooore spiritual knowledge. Im not where i'd like to be and have so much more to learn. I cannot wait to start studying the scriptures MORE in depth.. I just want to know more more more. I feel like recently i've been more concerned about my secular studies that i began to neglect my spiritual studies, which should come first. I've neglected to fulfill my calling in church due to my immense amount of dedication to my secular studies and i dont feel very good about that. Hopefully i can change my time management and fix that stat :)

I went on a little shopping spree to deseret books and bought "the remarkable soul of a woman" by elder Uchtdorf...i cannot wait to read it!! I also bought this really great book about "dating vs. hanging out" and the whole "dating" thing leading up to marriage and self esteem, tips, etc. it's just a really great book and i wished i knew about it sooner. it makes boys make sense :) (and girls!)

Missionary work opportunities are around every corner and i LOVE THEM!! I sincerely love the feeling of helping others and doing all i can to make someones day brighter. I love when those i've talked to about the Gospel tell me they've invited missionaries to their home, it's the most rewarding feeling knowing that i had a small part of aiding someone towards discovering our amazing Gospel and hopefully soon baptism :D . In church, im fairly quiet and dont make comments during Sunday school...but trust me i have SO many thoughts running through my mind and so many questions too! I love going to the Temple to study the scriptures...you can study them anywhere where you feel comfort and peace and able to feel the spirit, and one of my favorite places to do so is at the Temple. It's kind of perfect.

Friends,...im so grateful to have my best friends be such an example to me. everyone has their own unique life story with their own trials and experiences that make us grow and become stronger. We all have had trials, all of us...and it's comforting to know that we will never be alone through them. ever! Im so blessed with great women in my life that influence me every day, the main one being my mama :) Guy friends- same story, righteous men who are worthy priesthood holders and always there willing to help. Im so lucky to have great guy friends who are concerned about me, how school goes, if im sick, sad over a boy, etc! Great guys who are there willing to listen to my "silly girl story" about the guy i like and are there to give me great advice or a big hug if im upset. they're wonderful and they know who they are.

Dating,..."dating vs. hanging out" was a grrrreat talk given by Elder Oaks and it's something i need to do more reflecting about because i have gotten myself caught up in that trend. It's so comfortable to hang out but "you miss 100% of the shots you dont make". (i've definitely been reading my new book, haha!!). I haven't gone on a date in like...okay 2 weeks but before then it hadn't been since...early march? okay that's not even bad but in my head my thoughts make sense haaha! there are "special guys" in my life right now, okay that statement is singular not plural...just one. he's wonderful-there are so many qualities i really admire and i wish i could freely tell him all of that but I gotta give it time. It's a complicated situation, but it's one i cannot turn my back on. I've tried...ohhhh i've tried....but it's impossible to let go for some reason beyond my understanding. I know everything will be fine though, i KNOW it...gotta love the power of prayer, yeah?

Blessings....IT'S ALL AROUND ME!! every second of the day i'm surrounded by reminders to why im so lucky to be a daughter of a Heavenly King who loves me and has shown me so by all the wonderful blessings im surrounded with. It's impossible to not be grateful, we are all SO fortunate!


basically,....Life is wonderful! trials, frustrations, doubts and insecurities....BLEH ON THEM! we will all grow and learn from them...im learning everyday and growing everyday from different trials placed before me. but we all need to remember we will NEVER go through them alone, ever! Where would i be without this wonderful Gospel? i dont even want to think about it!! I just know im so fortunate for my knowledge and so grateful for being part of His great plan :)