guess what?!
I get braces,....AGAIN!
...and im not even sad!
....im EXCITED!
yep, I loved my braces when i was a teen so im excited for these new ones i get on WEDNESDAY.
why do i have to get braces again?
Back in the summer i got a crown placed and now my bottom retainers dont fit cause one tooth shifted.
Treatment plan: Lower braces for 8 weeks. And a permanent retainer placed cause i wasn't a good girl with my regular retainers.
I Love braces.
I am weird.
yay!
Monday, January 3, 2011
Thursday, December 30, 2010
I saw the Red & Blue lights come
Have you ever had to call the paramedics for your dad?....i hope not. I dont wish it on anyone. ...But i had to dial those dreaded 3 digits in order to get help....
December 24th, 2010, 1230AM.
I came home early Thursday night thinking I was tired, but really it was more of an urge to go home. I walk into my parents room and kiss my dad on the forehead as he laid sleeping to let him know i was home. He had been having a dry cough for a couple of days with a low grade fever, so i asked how he felt. "bien" (good) is all i got in return.
I went to my bedroom and did my usual bed time routine. My mom and niece who had been watching a movie when i got home, got into bed at this time.
Around 1230am, i heard my dogs going CRAZY barking. They only bark this way whenever a stranger is in the house and I dismissed their barks thinking they'd seen a cat go by the window. But they persisted and I whiningly got out of bed to shut them up.
"Oh dear Lord what do I do!!"....came the chilling cries from my mom as i opened my bedroom door. Without taking a second to see what was happening, i instinctively ran for the telephone and through the master bathroom looking for my parents.
In the kitchen, i saw my Dad running toward the sink with his arms in the air as my mom ran behind him patting his back in a frantic motion. I faced my Dad to see his face completely blue, ears going white and a desperate attempt to breathe. I DID NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT WAS HAPPENING. He was sleeping just a few minutes ago.
Immediately i dialed those dreaded three numbers. Help was on the way.
I ran to my dad and on my way to him, i saw my 9 year old niece standing by watching him with her hand over her mouth. MY HEART SHATTERED INTO PIECES. no child should have to see this. I shouldn't have to see this. NO ONE deserves to see their loved one in this state of emergency. I ran to my baby and held her tight and whispered words of comfort and we said a quick prayer.
As i reached my dad he began to cough, THATS A GOOD SIGN. The lady on the other end of the phone asked me if he was conscious, and he was. So we had to keep him coughing to get some sort of O2 going through him because if he stopped coughing and the o2 was cut out again,...no oxygenation to the brain means....you know, the "D" word.
All i remember was running to my dad and in desperation fanned him and grabbed his hands and yelled into the Heavens,... DO NOT DO THIS TO ME, DAD. DO NOT LEAVE ME! LOOK AT ME, COUGH!!! ..... i was numb. completely numb.
I ran outside to see the flashing Red & Blue lights bolting down my street. I let out a breath of relief as I walked the men towards my dad. They stabilized his airway, took vitals and gave him oxygen. As i held my mom the paramedics instructed us my papa needed to go to the ER. without thinking it twice, we took my dad to the Emergency room.
We didn't leave the hospital until 0800. Diagnosis, upper airway obstruction. My dad's viral infection (cough) got so bad that his tonsil swelled to the point of closure. The nurses started him on an IV and gave him steroids to open up the airway.
His ER doctor wanted to hospitalize him to keep his heart monitored, but EKG's and lab enzymes were clear, so my daddy signed himself out AMA. (Against Medical Advice).
DECEMBER 24th, 2010 was the scariest night of my life.
I dont remember anything. This is all little spots of memory i have here and then. My mommy told me she saw me differently as i ran down the halls of our home for the paramedics, how i was calm and quick to act, yet my eyes told a whole different story. I WAS SCARED. genuinely scared.
My Heavenly Father blessed me with strength in those moments of panic cause i never imagined myself to be "calm". I broke down after dropping my dad and mom off at the ER door and i went to park my car. I called Tori with out reason, just to tell her to pray and I have never felt such pain and worry in my heart. I scared her cause she's never heard me in hysterics before. I was strong for my daddy. ANd he was strong for me.
I am grateful for the tender mercies of our Heavenly Father. For the strength he gave me and my mommy. I didnt leave my dad's hospital bed side for a second. I was his best nurse he said :)
I broke down on the car ride home, holding my dads hand and expressing myself.
ABOVE ALL, I BROKE DOWN TALKING TO MY HEAVENLY FATHER. He helped me and blessed my family that terrible Christmas Eve moment. But all the events, made our Christmas that much sweeter for our family was more united than ever and the outpouring of love and gratitude was felt.
IM SORRY. this post makes no sense maybe cause my thoughts are all over the place. I can't write things in order cause like i mentioned, i dont remember. But i know that every moment i see my dad, I remember my test of faith cause not for a second, did i forget to thank my Lord.
December 24th, 2010, 1230AM.
I came home early Thursday night thinking I was tired, but really it was more of an urge to go home. I walk into my parents room and kiss my dad on the forehead as he laid sleeping to let him know i was home. He had been having a dry cough for a couple of days with a low grade fever, so i asked how he felt. "bien" (good) is all i got in return.
I went to my bedroom and did my usual bed time routine. My mom and niece who had been watching a movie when i got home, got into bed at this time.
Around 1230am, i heard my dogs going CRAZY barking. They only bark this way whenever a stranger is in the house and I dismissed their barks thinking they'd seen a cat go by the window. But they persisted and I whiningly got out of bed to shut them up.
"Oh dear Lord what do I do!!"....came the chilling cries from my mom as i opened my bedroom door. Without taking a second to see what was happening, i instinctively ran for the telephone and through the master bathroom looking for my parents.
In the kitchen, i saw my Dad running toward the sink with his arms in the air as my mom ran behind him patting his back in a frantic motion. I faced my Dad to see his face completely blue, ears going white and a desperate attempt to breathe. I DID NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT WAS HAPPENING. He was sleeping just a few minutes ago.
Immediately i dialed those dreaded three numbers. Help was on the way.
I ran to my dad and on my way to him, i saw my 9 year old niece standing by watching him with her hand over her mouth. MY HEART SHATTERED INTO PIECES. no child should have to see this. I shouldn't have to see this. NO ONE deserves to see their loved one in this state of emergency. I ran to my baby and held her tight and whispered words of comfort and we said a quick prayer.
As i reached my dad he began to cough, THATS A GOOD SIGN. The lady on the other end of the phone asked me if he was conscious, and he was. So we had to keep him coughing to get some sort of O2 going through him because if he stopped coughing and the o2 was cut out again,...no oxygenation to the brain means....you know, the "D" word.
All i remember was running to my dad and in desperation fanned him and grabbed his hands and yelled into the Heavens,... DO NOT DO THIS TO ME, DAD. DO NOT LEAVE ME! LOOK AT ME, COUGH!!! ..... i was numb. completely numb.
I ran outside to see the flashing Red & Blue lights bolting down my street. I let out a breath of relief as I walked the men towards my dad. They stabilized his airway, took vitals and gave him oxygen. As i held my mom the paramedics instructed us my papa needed to go to the ER. without thinking it twice, we took my dad to the Emergency room.
We didn't leave the hospital until 0800. Diagnosis, upper airway obstruction. My dad's viral infection (cough) got so bad that his tonsil swelled to the point of closure. The nurses started him on an IV and gave him steroids to open up the airway.
His ER doctor wanted to hospitalize him to keep his heart monitored, but EKG's and lab enzymes were clear, so my daddy signed himself out AMA. (Against Medical Advice).
DECEMBER 24th, 2010 was the scariest night of my life.
I dont remember anything. This is all little spots of memory i have here and then. My mommy told me she saw me differently as i ran down the halls of our home for the paramedics, how i was calm and quick to act, yet my eyes told a whole different story. I WAS SCARED. genuinely scared.
My Heavenly Father blessed me with strength in those moments of panic cause i never imagined myself to be "calm". I broke down after dropping my dad and mom off at the ER door and i went to park my car. I called Tori with out reason, just to tell her to pray and I have never felt such pain and worry in my heart. I scared her cause she's never heard me in hysterics before. I was strong for my daddy. ANd he was strong for me.
I am grateful for the tender mercies of our Heavenly Father. For the strength he gave me and my mommy. I didnt leave my dad's hospital bed side for a second. I was his best nurse he said :)
I broke down on the car ride home, holding my dads hand and expressing myself.
ABOVE ALL, I BROKE DOWN TALKING TO MY HEAVENLY FATHER. He helped me and blessed my family that terrible Christmas Eve moment. But all the events, made our Christmas that much sweeter for our family was more united than ever and the outpouring of love and gratitude was felt.
IM SORRY. this post makes no sense maybe cause my thoughts are all over the place. I can't write things in order cause like i mentioned, i dont remember. But i know that every moment i see my dad, I remember my test of faith cause not for a second, did i forget to thank my Lord.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Let There Be Praise
I Love Christian Dance Company!!
This was my 3rd year in the Company and also my last. 2010 marks the 10th year since CDC was created by amazing girls with tremendous testimonies.
For those not familiar, read this article featured in the NEW ERA about how the annual "Let there be praise" Christmas show came to be... http://lds.org/new-era/2008/12/let-there-be-praise?lang=eng .... :)
I have a simple, but strong testimony of my Savior and Redeemer. This annual performance is such a testimony builder in which i learn so much from my self, as well as the beautiful girls involved.
The Temple performance is my favorite, for i have the most perfect view of the Lords sacred home in front of me. It's difficult to dance in such a small stage, but the view is beyond perfect. The rain poured down on Temple grounds as we performed that night, i felt so bad for all who were sitting in the cold still wanting to watch us dance. We ended the 30 minute performance with my all time favorite hymn, "I Know that My Redeemer lives"...we walked on stage at the end with our hands to our hearts as the words sang, "i know, He lives"...with my eye set firmly on the Holy Temple and those words being sung, i felt the spirit so strongly and merciful. I may have cried.
I LOVE THE CHRISTIAN DANCE COMPANY.
I am grateful for the experience i get to dance through my testimony of my Savior and to share it with everyone i love. I am grateful for Tricia who began this program that on this 10th year, continues to inspire our community.
This was my 3rd year in the Company and also my last. 2010 marks the 10th year since CDC was created by amazing girls with tremendous testimonies.
For those not familiar, read this article featured in the NEW ERA about how the annual "Let there be praise" Christmas show came to be... http://lds.org/new-era/2008/12/let-there-be-praise?lang=eng .... :)
I have a simple, but strong testimony of my Savior and Redeemer. This annual performance is such a testimony builder in which i learn so much from my self, as well as the beautiful girls involved.
The Temple performance is my favorite, for i have the most perfect view of the Lords sacred home in front of me. It's difficult to dance in such a small stage, but the view is beyond perfect. The rain poured down on Temple grounds as we performed that night, i felt so bad for all who were sitting in the cold still wanting to watch us dance. We ended the 30 minute performance with my all time favorite hymn, "I Know that My Redeemer lives"...we walked on stage at the end with our hands to our hearts as the words sang, "i know, He lives"...with my eye set firmly on the Holy Temple and those words being sung, i felt the spirit so strongly and merciful. I may have cried.
I LOVE THE CHRISTIAN DANCE COMPANY.
I am grateful for the experience i get to dance through my testimony of my Savior and to share it with everyone i love. I am grateful for Tricia who began this program that on this 10th year, continues to inspire our community.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
i'm 21.
Happy birthday to meeeee!!
[ On December 17th ]
I never do anything for my birthdays beside the casual family get together, blow the candles and call it good. I enjoy that a lot cause i despise being the center of attention. It makes me nervous and i dont like people focusing on me. Im silly like that.
My birthday week started off with a trip to the snow which was so much fun! My guy friends are pretty silly. That week was my school finals so i spent it locked up in the library. Luckily, a studly guy needed library time so we spent hours studying it up at the library. I passed pharmacology and nursing, but failed my pathophysiology class. POOTS. sad day. But i can retake it. so it's not the end of the world.
anyways, the week consisted of school, studying and work. My RN school friend bought me a pin that said "CARD ME, IM 21". cutie!
Come midnight on the 17th, i did my traditional "jump on my parents bed and yell "IM BORN IM BORN, GIMME PRESENTS!" " ...( im really mature, i know). I opened my gifts at midnight which was a spicy black purse and soft pink pj's. I love my parents!
FRIDAY, DECEMBER 17th...
My day was pretty normal, loved the phone calls, texts and messages wishing me a happy day. Im blessed with terrific people all around me. Towards the afternoon, Gabby & Mel came over and we went to practice for a dance we were doing at my family ward's Christmas dinner. We performed at 8 and then i was supposed to meet my friends at the "BACKYARD" for a quesadilla and something chill. In my head, im thinking it wa sjust me and my girls.
welp, i show up to this:
these girls are amazing!!
next thing i know, a bunch of cutie friends show up and wish me a happy birthday. It was so sweet of them to do that for me...i never would have done something for myself so this was the way to get me out of my "im shy to do something" phase. Lots of great friends, and good conversations went down. We ended the night playing games at a cuties house and welp...i had the greatest 21st i could have imagined.
my blessing: my friends.
I'm lucky.
happpppy birthday to meeeeeeeee!!!
next step: SWITCHING MY DRIVERS LICENSE TO THE ADULT VERSION. can't. wait!!
[ On December 17th ]
I never do anything for my birthdays beside the casual family get together, blow the candles and call it good. I enjoy that a lot cause i despise being the center of attention. It makes me nervous and i dont like people focusing on me. Im silly like that.
My birthday week started off with a trip to the snow which was so much fun! My guy friends are pretty silly. That week was my school finals so i spent it locked up in the library. Luckily, a studly guy needed library time so we spent hours studying it up at the library. I passed pharmacology and nursing, but failed my pathophysiology class. POOTS. sad day. But i can retake it. so it's not the end of the world.
anyways, the week consisted of school, studying and work. My RN school friend bought me a pin that said "CARD ME, IM 21". cutie!
Come midnight on the 17th, i did my traditional "jump on my parents bed and yell "IM BORN IM BORN, GIMME PRESENTS!" " ...( im really mature, i know). I opened my gifts at midnight which was a spicy black purse and soft pink pj's. I love my parents!
FRIDAY, DECEMBER 17th...
My day was pretty normal, loved the phone calls, texts and messages wishing me a happy day. Im blessed with terrific people all around me. Towards the afternoon, Gabby & Mel came over and we went to practice for a dance we were doing at my family ward's Christmas dinner. We performed at 8 and then i was supposed to meet my friends at the "BACKYARD" for a quesadilla and something chill. In my head, im thinking it wa sjust me and my girls.
welp, i show up to this:
these girls are amazing!!
next thing i know, a bunch of cutie friends show up and wish me a happy birthday. It was so sweet of them to do that for me...i never would have done something for myself so this was the way to get me out of my "im shy to do something" phase. Lots of great friends, and good conversations went down. We ended the night playing games at a cuties house and welp...i had the greatest 21st i could have imagined.
my blessing: my friends.
I'm lucky.
happpppy birthday to meeeeeeeee!!!
next step: SWITCHING MY DRIVERS LICENSE TO THE ADULT VERSION. can't. wait!!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Do you ever get an urge...
...to shop without reason?
Fact: I do not like to go shopping! When i do go, i have something specific in mind and i know where to get it, so ill be in an out within minutes. And if i feel like browsing (which is rare) again, it's quick and i usually get bored and leave.
BUT IN SOME CASES... like today, i have an urge to just go swipe my favorite plastic card. I have nothing i need or want. I just, i just...i just wanna go swipe muh card, enter muh pin and buy me something pretty.
I THINK... i get this way after I go over a "hurdle". For example, i spent a total of 16 hours studying for my pathophysiology final (dont worry, i still think i failed the class) and i only got 2 hours of sleep. I went in this morning, took the final, and now....i wanna reward myself for just getting it done.
good thing im "cheap" and clearance shop all the way! I bought a hoodie shirt from H&M for 20 dollars (reasonable) but i still cried a little in my heart. YAY FOR SALES!
swipe swipe swipe....sigh.
Fact: I do not like to go shopping! When i do go, i have something specific in mind and i know where to get it, so ill be in an out within minutes. And if i feel like browsing (which is rare) again, it's quick and i usually get bored and leave.
BUT IN SOME CASES... like today, i have an urge to just go swipe my favorite plastic card. I have nothing i need or want. I just, i just...i just wanna go swipe muh card, enter muh pin and buy me something pretty.
I THINK... i get this way after I go over a "hurdle". For example, i spent a total of 16 hours studying for my pathophysiology final (dont worry, i still think i failed the class) and i only got 2 hours of sleep. I went in this morning, took the final, and now....i wanna reward myself for just getting it done.
good thing im "cheap" and clearance shop all the way! I bought a hoodie shirt from H&M for 20 dollars (reasonable) but i still cried a little in my heart. YAY FOR SALES!
swipe swipe swipe....sigh.
Monday, December 13, 2010
You know those nights...
... where all your stresses both school and dating related just kinda come on you and squish you?
those nights, im grateful for my amazing best friends.
Flip the page...im excited to flip it!
Come the new year, there will be great goals planned for myself and i cannot wait.
point of the post is,
I LOVE MY BEST FRIENDS with all my heart!! helping each other and being there for another unconditionally is the greatest example of selfless love. I am blessed. For my sisters, i am grateful.
and side note: boys smell. where da men at?
those nights, im grateful for my amazing best friends.
Flip the page...im excited to flip it!
Come the new year, there will be great goals planned for myself and i cannot wait.
point of the post is,
I LOVE MY BEST FRIENDS with all my heart!! helping each other and being there for another unconditionally is the greatest example of selfless love. I am blessed. For my sisters, i am grateful.
and side note: boys smell. where da men at?
Sunday, December 12, 2010
three things. (because im avoiding studying)
Three Names I go by
1. Dar
2. Dartard
3. Darleeeneyweenie
Three Jobs I have had in my life
1. Mervyns kids department manager (at 16, holler!)
2. habilitar/respite for Pediatrics that have Autism (current)
3. n/a
Three Places I have lived
1. Lima, Peru
2. BAY AREEEEA, California
3. Mesa, AZ. (im boring)
Three TV Shows that I watch
1. SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE?
2. community
3. Llena de Amor (telenovela. HAH that's right!)
Three places I have been
1. PERU
2. CALIFORNIA
3. uhm....brazil when i was like 3?..does that count? gosh dang it i gotta travel more
Three of my favorite foods
1. frozen yogurt
2. anything with chicken
3. hot cheetos. it's in my basic food group.
Things I am looking forward to
1. no more escuela!
2. meeting a guy that wont play games/lead me on/waste my time
3. moving in with some pretty awesome friends
1. Dar
2. Dartard
3. Darleeeneyweenie
Three Jobs I have had in my life
1. Mervyns kids department manager (at 16, holler!)
2. habilitar/respite for Pediatrics that have Autism (current)
3. n/a
Three Places I have lived
1. Lima, Peru
2. BAY AREEEEA, California
3. Mesa, AZ. (im boring)
Three TV Shows that I watch
1. SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE?
2. community
3. Llena de Amor (telenovela. HAH that's right!)
Three places I have been
1. PERU
2. CALIFORNIA
3. uhm....brazil when i was like 3?..does that count? gosh dang it i gotta travel more
Three of my favorite foods
1. frozen yogurt
2. anything with chicken
3. hot cheetos. it's in my basic food group.
Things I am looking forward to
1. no more escuela!
2. meeting a guy that wont play games/lead me on/waste my time
3. moving in with some pretty awesome friends
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